When I was younger I dreamed for this. Dreamed about it. Wanted it forever. When I got a little older I still wanted it but was too scared to get it. One day I met someone who changed my life. Did a complete 180. I gave everything to her. Put her before everything. I would go days making sure she was happy. Maybe I was stressed or upset but as long as she was happy it was worth it. I let her step all over me. I was fine with it cause at the end of the day I realized it was easier for her to be happy cause then everything was ok and there would be no worries. Her and I didn’t work out. I was on my own. I still had that dream of being what I wanted when I was younger. I decided to go for it cause I felt like I had nothing left. I did it. I started making videos trying to make people happy cause I hated being so sad or upset all the time. I started telling people my life story and what I wanted to be. Kids could relate. I never thought I would reach out the way I had. To this day I am reaching out to more and more people each day. It’s gotten to the point where I’m starting to feel like I have been so caught up with everyone trying to be apart of “Nathan Ryan” that I have forgotten who I am. I started this journey alone and that’s how it should be but my heart is too big to say no to help others out. It’s back to the ways of as long as they are happy it’s easier. I wasn’t going anywhere with that attitude. I learned to stand up for myself and I was happier. So it’s back to the old me. The me that started all of this. I started this alone and I will finish it alone. After all I did this to make others happy. To help people get over their bullshit and be happy again. I can’t be unhappy while trying to make others happy. Thats being fake. Things are going back to the way they were. Thank you for being here with me now and in the future. Your support means the world to me.

-Nate